Dang! I've done it again!

I'm so sorry everyone! I'm so caught up with everyone and busy I've just been not writing! I'm so sorry! I'm going to try to write even more as the plane leaves first thing Tuesday morning and I have to write as much as I can before then! I'm seeing everyone for 'the last time' catching up with old friends who I haven't seen in ages. Spending a bunch of time with the new friends, and trying to see my family like crazy! How am I going to fit all this in within the next 5 days?!

So tomorrow I'm planning on sleeping till late, get up, shower then at 11.30 I'm going to the school, hang with some friends, crash band class, then slowly wander back to TLF where I'm staying. This should put me at about 1.45. At 2, my buddy Jordan is coming down so we can hang out for the afternoon. Hopefully will be able to introduce him to some of my new American friends! I've wanted my Brits to meet my Yanks for so long! He is going to be the first one! Yeay for you Jord!

Friday I have nothing planned, but mum is going out and the boys will be at Download, so I'm home alone. Will probably stay out till late with the friends then go home, sleep till late, then Kennitta is coming down Saturday! Woop! (Hopefully. She is probably going to cancel and ruin my last weekend in glorious England, but... I have my hope up that she won't crush them so yeah... fingers crossed.) We will hang out around base too, hopefully she will meet some of my Americans! Gosh I'm using the word 'hopefully' a lot! Jesus!

Sunday Nan is coming round, and Monday I will hopefully (there I go again) get to see my dad for the last time. I hope I do and I hope I don't... I do because I really want to see him one last time before I go. And I don't because I know we will all cry. Frankly, I have had enough crying for one lifetime this past week and I want nothing more with it for a very long time. But I know I'm going to have to once more. Then it will take another week for me to get over it again. Hmm... I still miss Elise and Yo like crazy. I broke down crying again today, thankfully, no one was around so I got away with it.

How am I feeling about the move? SO EXCITED! BUZZING! OH MY GOD I'M IN LOVE WITH THE IDEA RIGHT NOW! Imagine a puppy having a hyper moment. Now imagine five puppies? Now, think of the Pacific ocean. Now comes the tricky part. Replace the pacific Oceans water, with excited puppies. That, sir, is how excited I am. Oh yes. Very!

I'm going back to Facebook now.

SophieEleonore. xx

No more tears.... Please (3.48am June 2)

I just waved goodbye to Elise and Johannes. They are leaving for Germany now and it feels like they are taking half of me with them. I cried for hours yesterday. Especially when they signed my yearbook. Elise and Yo were the only ones to make me cry. So far, they are the hardest goodbye.

Yo and I sat for ages yesterday just talking. I was crying, but we laughed. He told me things in that space of time which changed me. I couldn't believe it! Everything he told me was amazing! He kissed me. I missed him. So much. I had to steal a few more before he left because I love him.  Not in the thrown-around-teen-'love'-way. But in a way that I will never, ever forget him. Nor, will I have what I had with him with anyone else. He pushed me to try new things. I loved all of them. Thank you Johannes W. for everything.

Elise... My best friend from the start. We had some rough times, but we could never stay mad longer than a few minutes. We have so many memories to share. Walking through Hinchingbrooke. Watching movies. Baking. Covering each others faces in mix. Eating sweets. Eating giant pretzels. Laughing at stupid things. Going to school dances. Neon Night! Cottilian! She looked beautiful at homecoming. Elise was there for me through thick and thin. I could cry to her. She could cry to me. I will see her again and they know I will. Thank you Elise W. for everything.

I'm going to try and sleep again now...

SophieEleonore. xx